My Life 201

Ok, so I had a random thought that has always been there but never really realized. How's this for weird but true: Have you ever gone to use the restroom at someone else's home only to discover that there is not enough toilet paper left, and you don't know what to do? Do you open doors and try to find some? Is there kleenex or paper towels around? Not likely. It's a real quandry. This has happened to me too many times. Thus I make sure that when I have guests, I set out an extra roll in plain sight, just in case. hee hee. You know you know what I'm talking about but don't want to admit. Pretty awkward to holler through the door to your host " Hey!!! I need more toilet paper! Where is it in here?!" Or worse yet, when you try to find some in places you'd expect it to be and there is none. What now? What would Miss Manners say?

Gee, it's been a little bit since I wrote in my "journal" here. Been really busy. I feel like, for the most part, I'm riding on top of the world. It's just a peace inside and a renewal. BW: the reason for the existence of this blog is not to entertain other people. It's for my own journal, and so I have a record to look back on. If those I gave access to want to read this, it's up to them. I've gotten back into a regular workout routine. I use my hour lunch break at work to go to the onsite gym. I do circuit weight training 3 times a week and treadmill and bike twice a week. Then I come home and get on the treadmill here at my apartment complex. ( most days) Getting stronger. Still a ways to go, but it's a good start. Was tough getting back into a regular routine. My clothes are already fitting better. I dropped a pant size in my business slacks. ( Thankfully I have 3 sizes in my closet! ) And my jeans are comfortable now, I don't feel lik

So, I am just thinking outloud through my fingers here. Saturday morning, a beautiful crisp morning. Got some praise songs playing and looking forward to a great weekend in the renewed me. This last week at work had a lot of stress points, but we got through it. And I know for a fact that I was able to stay positive, calm, and still have some laughs because of my God and how he works in me all the time. I saw many little blessings this week, not just in my life but in those around me that I've been praying for. This week at Bible study I learned of a nice long walking path near me that I didn't know about. So I am going for a nice long walk in the sunshine today when it warms up a bit. I did get on the treadmill 3 times this week and did a workout on the weight machines. Still sore, but that is a good sign. I AM going to slim down, tone up and get back into that hiking shape that I let gradually slip away the last year and half.

Well, another good day. I'm actually a little surprised, pleasantly, at how I feel and how productive I have been the past 5 days. Although work has had some stresses, I have handled them well, my boss is very happy with me, we are on the same page. Yet despite the stress, my mood has been very good and positive. I've had 4 nights of good sleep finally. Getting to bed on time, sleeping through the night, and therefore not having such a problem getting out of bed in the morning. I've actually been getting up 10 minutes earlier with only 1 hit of the snooze button! LOL. I'm getting so much done in the evening when I get home from work. Feeling a great sense of accomplishment and hope as I take care of longtime stressor. Well, my furkids are trying very hard to convince me that they are starving and must have a treat right this second. In spite of having dinner an hour ago. MeToo is whining, and stomping her feet, and the other two are just sitting starting, letting h

Ok, this won't mean much to anyone but me and a couple special people in my life. I'm writing this for me. I went to bed at a decent hour last night, slept fairly well and got up by 7:00. I feel better than I have in a long time. I actually made myself breakfast: broccoli cheese omelet and toast. I did all the laundry, including putting it away. That is something because I hate folding laundry. But I did. There is nothing in the laundry basket now. I emptied the dishwasher. I've been lazy about that. I don't know why those 2 chores are so difficult for me. They aren't difficult, nor time consuming. I just don't like it. I took the dogs for a nice walk and then........I went down to the fitness center and did 30 minutes on the treadmill!!!! And I read my new daily devotional. In fact, it was so good I read 11 days worth! Now I am going to a friend's house to help put away Christmas decorations and just hang out. No lying around in bed being a hermit today.

The following are not my words. I am copying exerpts from a book I will tell you about at the end. (I added just a couple words of my own in a couple spots. ) I found this section today to be so true and encouraging: "Thank you my gracious God that in your gracious plan to bless me and use me, you've allowed me to go through hard times, through trials that many people go through in this fallen world. How glad I am that you're so good at reaching down and making something beautiful out of even the worst situations! ...I praise you that the things that happened in my past, both enjoyable and painful, are raw materials for blessings, both in my life and in the lives of others. ...I thank you for the things in my past that appear to be limitations, hindrances, bad breaks...the wounds of old hurts, the unmet emotional needs, the mistakes or neglect of other people...even their cruelty to me, their abuse. How comforting to know that in all my distresses, you were distressed. A

Ok, so I have learned that I need to not panic about my furkids so much. I've spent literally thousands of dollars in vet bills, most of them justly.Some out of fear of not doing the right thing. I don't regret it. My furkids are just that. Chinsir is my "Golden boy" . That boy is worth so many thousands of dollars and ongoing debt. But I am sooooo glad I still have him in a good state. I can't explain the connection. Yes, I am realistic. He has had so many problems that he probably won't live a normal life expectancy. But I will absolutely take care of him no matter the cost until God says it's time. I have come to a point where I literally cannot pay the vet bills, so they only go in real emergencies. I hate that. Chinsir has a strange growth in the middle of his back. At first I thought it was a tick. Not. Then thought maybe just a scrape or scab. I scraped the scab off. It bled. Funny though, the bleeding diffusion and shape of the surrounding tissue i

Today I acted on a resolution for a lifestyle change. I can't go into details here. So pardon me for being vague. I want to lose the extra pounds I've put on the past 3 years. I want to sleep better. I want more energy. I want to get back to working out regularly. So I need to get off my butt and make some changes. Today I found out that this choice wasn't as difficult as I thought. I wish I would have taken this step sooner. But I thought there was only one way and that scared me. And I was too hard on myself. Today I learned. I have more hope. I am embarking on a personal journey for the next few weeks. Time will tell how I fare. Now, I will talk about a very sensitive subject. One that I find very difficult to find anyone to talk about it with. Weight. I have been skinny most of my life without trying. Was not a concern. Not even a thought. When I turned 40, it changed. I started putting on weight. Ok, so I had room, so it wasn't a big deal at first. I th

Relationships. 1/1/2008 Ok, so here I sit in a reflective mode. Why we seem to be more reflective at the end of a calendar year, I don't know. Couldn't we just make any date the start of a new year? Funny how we put emphasis on certain dates. Well, so be it. Everyone tends to approach each New Year with hopes, resolutions, reflections. Usually, it's a few days of such sentiments and then life gets in the way and we fall into our usual patterns. Does that mean we should give up on hopes for the new year? No. Absolutely not. Whether we find ourselves reflecting and thoughtful on Jan. 1 or on some other date in the year does not matter. The fact that we do is what matters. As I move into another year, like everyone else, I have thoughts, emotions, dreams and goals. I do feel more hopeful going into 2008 than I have in awhile. Some people can't wait for the new year to start because they've had a crappy year and they just want it to be over, and they want a new start. I